Week 45

Inside each and everyone of us knows the truth. We might have to dig, but at the end of the day you know yourself better than anyone else does. You might put up a front, but you know what you want. You don’t necessarily have to share truths you might be uncomfortable with but as long as you recognize it you’re better off than others.

Always stay true yourself and what you want. Don’t give in to what society wants, or what you think everyone else wants. Do you and I believe you will find happiness.

 

Truthfully yours,

Casey

This has been another week of Me, being honest.

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Week 43 & 44

In the past two weeks my grandmother passed away, I ended a five month relationship, I was evacuated from my apartment, survived a  hurricane, and registered for courses for the end of my junior year.

It’s been pretty hectic since we last got together. Where would I even start? I must apologize for skipping last week. Hurricane Sandy did a lot of damage and I was without power for a period of time. Also with everything else going on in my life I’m sorry to say but this wasn’t my first priority.

My Grandma passed away after spending the last few years of her life with declining health. I thought I’d be prepared but I wasn’t. I guess you really can’t ever be prepared for death. I was the youngest grandkid of hers and I decided I wanted to give her eulogy. It was something I knew I’d regret not doing, although it scared me. She helped raise me so it only seemed fitting that I give her a proper send off. I kept it together for awhile but I eventually brought everyone to tears. I just shared my honest and best memories that I had with her. I know her suffering is over.

I broke up with my boyfriend. I’m not gonna say a lot here but it was something I needed to do. You can’t lie to yourself or your partner.

Sandy didn’t harm any loved ones but it destroyed my family’s summer home. My family is pretty devastated but I’m just happy everyone is okay. I lost power at school and was evacuated to a temporary dorm where they had me working 24/7. It was mentally draining but I survived. I bonded with my staff and my friends. We had a truth night where we stayed up almost all night and became a lot closer.

My school’s plan for a disaster was terrible and poorly planned. I made sure to voice this to my boss and tell his supervisor how I felt. I told the truth and it felt good knowing I said what I needed to say.

I pulled a trigger and decided to stick with my broadcasting major. I don’t necessarily like all the courses but it’s a dream of mine to work in the city. I did some serious thinking and decided that I’d be disappointed in myself if I gave up the opportunity to potentially throw away the option to work in the heart of NYC. I may not be happy but it’s a dream I know in my heart is worth pursuing.

That’s my life lately. It’s been hectic but I’ve been honest. I apologize for the lack of posting last week! I hope my life will get back to some level of normalcy.

Truthfully yours,

Casey

This has been another week of Me, being honest.

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Week 42

The truth is right now my life is falling apart at the seams. I have a lot going on and my priorities are not in the right place. I need to make decisions and I need to speak up for myself. There are some truths I want to avoid but I can’t do that anymore.

 

The truth can really do some damage to everyone in its path.

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Week 41

October 11th is National Coming Out Day. I decided that there would be no better day than to embrace my sexual identity. For the first time I publicly announced on facebook that I was gay. Most readers know that over the past year I’ve struggled with who I am. I eventually came out to my parents which wasn’t the best day in the world.

Some of you may be thinking, “what’s the big deal?” I was always hesitant on facebook, because in this society it’s the last piece in the puzzle. I’m friends with relatives, distant relatives, employers, the kid I used to babysit, and a bunch of other people that I imagined would disown me for being gay. So on October 11th, I did a social media blitz, and  I outed myself for good on facebook, twitter, tumblr, and instagram.

As soon as I posted it I made sure to steer clear of the internet for the rest of the day. When I finally went to see how the news went over I was shocked at how positive everyone was. People I hadn’t talked to in years had congratulated me. The distant relatives sent loving messages and the outpour was overwhelming. The world didn’t stop spinning. I was so concerned with what my southern relatives might think I tried to stay quiet. I even thought about deleting them before publicly coming out. I decided however that I should just be me and let it be. They all sent me loving messages and I finally feel at peace with myself. I can start being who I am.

“Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.” -Dr. Seuss

Truthfully yours,

Casey

This has been another week of Me, being honest.

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Week 40

Holy cow I’ve hit forty weeks. Isn’t that the span of an entire pregnancy? I think it is. Today was a pretty monumental day for me. This week is “coming out week” at my school in honor of National Coming Out Day which is recognized on October 11th. It started out with a flag raising ceremony which I was asked to speak at.

Here’s a snippet of my speech:

“Growing up I was picked on and I used to imagine a day when I could have a fresh start. I came to college ready for a new beginning but I couldn’t do it. I wasn’t ready. It took a while but I finally got tired of living a lie. I embraced the truth and just decided to be myself. It’s the best decision I’ve ever made.

It’s important that no one lives in fear of who they are. To the allies in the crowd, stand up proudly and be a supporter. Visibility matters. It might be scary thought but the world needs active allies. Think of is as standing up for equality for everyone.

 Everyone in the world is like a cupcake. We’re all different colors, textures, and flavors but at the end of the day we’re all still dessert. Every cupcake has something that makes them special. It might be a chocolate center, homemade butter cream frosting, special wrappers or sprinkles. The most unique cupcakes however are the ones with the sprinkles on the inside because no two are the same. These types of cupcakes might not be brave enough to carry their sprinkles on the outside but they’re special in a way that they aren’t like any other cupcakes. Once you get the wrapper off you can see that they’re like everyone else. Rainbow cupcakes are still dessert. Cupcakes just want to be eaten.

My favorite author, Dr. Seuss, has a quote, “Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.”

It’s especially important to think about during coming out week. There is nothing wrong with being who you are and you shouldn’t let anyone else let you feel otherwise. Be proud of yourself because there’s nobody better at being you than yourself.”

Speaking at the rally.

Truthfully yours,

Casey

This has been another week of Me, being honest.

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Week 39

This week has been hectic. I told a lie to a really good friend because we’re playing a game and I want to win. It didn’t feel right doing it. I probably could have won without lying but I still opted to. I think I upset him and when I look back on it I’m a little disappointed in myself for being greedy. I got caught up with the idea of winning so I compromised who I am to do so. I’m pretty sure this can be considered a huge metaphor for society and how many of us all just want what is best for us first. We think about our end goals before we consider who we might step on along the way.

Maybe the world would be a better place if no one lied.

Truthfully yours,

Casey

This has been another week of Me, being honest.

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Week 38

I told my parents that I’ve been dating a guy. The world didn’t stop spinning although I thought it would. My Mom actually told me that she loves me and she’s proud of me. For anyone who has been reading for a while, you know that this is a pretty big deal. I decided I should be “honest” and fill them in on what has been going on in my life. I can’t move forward in a relationship (or life really) if I’m always looking back.

Truthfully yours,

Casey

This has been another week of Me, being honest.

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